I'm always puking and i have the weirdest mood swings. I don't know who to turn to. I'm taking a pregnancy test next Wednesday when Family Planning comes to our school.
Harley is such a dooshe! He wont even look at me or talk to me. Maybe that's for the best. Maybe, just maybe, I'll get over him that way.
I've started reading 'The short second life of Bree Tanner' today, you know, the one by Stephenie Meyer. It's quite interesting and i don't really want to put it down after i start.
It's hot and stuffy in this class.
I went to a party last night, i know it's a school night but i haven't gone to a party in 3weeks and i was bored.
I had a few vodka cruisers, they were alright i guess. I like pure vodka better.It's stronger that way.
I feel like a smoke right now. I had one at lunch with a few friends, including Larissa. My best friend.
I know i shouldn't be smoking if i really am pregnant but I'll quit if i am. I don't know if the dad is who i think he is. Maybe it is Gareth, maybe it's Ashley. I guess if i am pregnant theres only one way to find out. Blood test when the baby is born. I don't know if i should tell anyone till i know for sure that i am pregnant. I'm still being watched 24/7 now that I've been diagnosed with depression, i don't need them worrying about me being pregnant now too.
Mum keeps a close eye on me and I'm grounded at the moment for stealing smokes from her behind her back. hopefully that grounding will end soon.
I thought i would show you the true Bethany Rose before you got to know me. This is Larissa and me. We're best friends forever and we have been for 4 years now. She's my best and closest friend.
Love you sis; x
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