6/8/10 bethany rose

I've been having really weird food cravings lately.. Like wanting pickled onions and peanut butter, together.
I'm always puking and i have the weirdest mood swings. I don't know who to turn to. I'm taking a pregnancy test next Wednesday when Family Planning comes to our school.
Harley is such a dooshe! He wont even look at me or talk to me. Maybe that's for the best. Maybe, just maybe, I'll get over him that way.
I've started reading 'The short second life of Bree Tanner' today, you know, the one by Stephenie Meyer. It's quite interesting and i don't really want to put it down after i start.
It's hot and stuffy in this class.

I went to a party last night, i know it's a school night but i haven't gone to a party in 3weeks and i was bored.
I had a few vodka cruisers, they were alright i guess. I like pure vodka better.It's stronger that way.

I feel like a smoke right now. I had one at lunch with a few friends, including Larissa. My best friend.
I know i shouldn't be smoking if i really am pregnant but I'll quit if i am. I don't know if the dad is who i think he is. Maybe it is Gareth, maybe it's Ashley. I guess if i am pregnant theres only one way to find out. Blood test when the baby is born. I don't know if i should tell anyone till i know for sure that i am pregnant. I'm still being watched 24/7 now that I've been diagnosed with depression, i don't need them worrying about me being pregnant now too.
Mum keeps a close eye on me  and I'm grounded at the moment for stealing smokes from her behind her back. hopefully that grounding will end soon.


I thought i would show you the true Bethany Rose before you got to know me. This is Larissa and me. We're best friends forever and we have been for 4 years now. She's my best and closest friend.
Love you sis; x

5/8/10 bethany rose

Today was a normal day for me. I hung out with my friends and had fun.

Only it's 11:44am in my time and brake just finished. My ex boyfriend, Ashley and his friend Harley hung out with Amy and I.
Harley took my phone and tried sending a text to my best friend Larissa, only i had no texts left. Harley and i were just starting to get close. He had recently admitted that he was in-love with me and considering he is a full time (sexy) player, i didn't believe it for a second. Only i have always liked him that way. He is hansom, funny and a great person to hang out with. He is always the laugh of the party. Always!

Larissa isn't talking to me at the moment, i didn't come to the room she was in at break so she is now really peeved at me.

My other friend Crystal is upset with me because i took the love of her life away from her. Gareth, my newest ex boyfriend. He is in-love with me but i'm still in-love with Ashley, Crystal is in-love with Gareth but Gareth wants nothing to do with her.

This weekend i'm supposed to be going to a party with my cousins friend Caitlen. She is fully lesbian, so is her girlfriend Jazz. Me, i'm just plain bisexual. I like boys and girls. I have hooked up with girls before and even a little more. My best friend Larissa and I have had a thing for each other for the whole 4years that we've been friends. I don't think we will ever do anything about it though, we're always braking up and getting back together. it wouldn't last.

I have recently started smoking, only my parents don't know. Mum found out but she thinks i quit. I don't like the taste much and the smoke tickles my throat but i can't help it. I just keep wanting the tar taste on my tastebuds.

Larissa and I are fighting over Ian Summerhald (Damon Salvatore from Vampire Diares). He's totally sexy and we both want him. So we came up with a deal, he belongs to both of us now. Sorry girls. He's unavailable.


Mrs.Cunningham is teaching our computer class at the moment and all i can focus on is her huge glasses and the flappy skin hanging from her neck, totally barf material. Everyone hates her, including me.


My Quote of the day :
Love as Long as you Live, Laugh as much as you Breathe